Hi there my lovely readers and followers! I just want to share some of my thoughts that have been bothering me for quite a long time. It’s about my size and the society.
It is kinda annoying when people will often tell you that you are fat or big… I ignore it most of the time… But it does piss me off of course. Sometimes, when they get into my nerves, I will tell them, “Hey, you know what, I have a big mirror at home, and I can see how I look, so please stop telling me that I am big because I know that already.” It hurts, when I say that I am hungry and I wanna eat something. And they will say that there’s no need to eat because I am already BIG! What does it got to do with me being big? I need to eat ok… I have metabolism and gastric problem, thus, loosing weight is not easy. It is often a misconception that when you are BIG, you are glutton. No I don’t binge on foods. I don’t eat whenever I want. Sometimes I will only eat two meals a day because my work starts at 5pm and ends at 1am. So, normally I am sleeping on breakfast time, so I will only get to eat lunch and dinner. This is actually why I have metabolic problem. When I am on holiday, I would loose weight because I eat on proper intervals and timing, thus my metabolism works well. I am actually standing and walking for at least 8 hours a day during my work as I work as a Restaurant Supervisor.
As an Asian, I am considered tall at the height of 5feet and 5inches and my weight is 70kg, size-16. My BMI says that I am slightly over-weight. Slightly ok, slightly! But human standards on the way a woman should look is like those skeleton walking on the runway! No wonder there is a lot more young women who falls into bulimia and anorexia. It’s because of the society standards! It’s sad knowing that girls would starve theirselves to death just to look like a Victoria Secret model.. Hello! Wake up! You are not working as a model ok. And don’t make those magazine centerfolds model your ideal target. There is this so called PHOTOSHOP… It is edited gurl. Think more realistic.
One more thing that bothers me a lot is when people will ask me about my age, and I will say I am 27, they would say that I look like 30. Wow! Thanks huh! They can even say that they want to see my identity card to prove that I am 27! What the heck! You guys doesn’t have hearts or what??? How would you feel if I will tell you that your mouth stinks like garbage in front of everyone? Isn’t that more embarrassing? Everybody gets old ok. Just wait for your turn.
There are things about me that people noticed the most. Its my smile and my eyes. These are what I can say attention catcher. Instead of looking at my size, they will be drawn to my smile and eyes… I am sexy in my own ways! So what if I am big? Every person have their special qualities and assets. We have different thumbprints and no two persons are the same. Don’t compare people and be polite to others. You might not know that once that person you are saying fat can one day be the supermodel that you envy the most. Nothing is permanent in this world…
I hope you guys don’t mind me getting mellow-dramatic. Stay pretty!